*If you might like to hear me read this piece to you, or you might like to have me as your company on your walk or for some self care love, please hit the play button up above and I’ll do my best to help heal your soul as I heal mine too x
Good morning one & all.
Thank god for a new day.
To start again.
To begin like yesterday was just a dream & tomorrow is something very far away.
I’m awake awhile now, a new habit I’ve formed is I no longer need to set an alarm…. at this time of the year anyways…. Instead I wake at exactly or there abouts the same time every morning. I now wake with the sun, me & her, the best of friends. I fall asleep with the moon & I wake with the other half of my belief system. A beautiful balance reached for this libra ⚖️
Gently, slowly & without any effort my body slowly awakens with the soft, reset energies rising as the fibres of my body awakes…one by one, my cells, my muscles, my organs feel the light touching them as they have never seen the light before. I awake with a similar process from when I attend my reiki master Denise…similar to my mediation practice…similar to lots of my self care practices. I close my eyes with ease, then gently, ever so gently I awake… hopeful, rejuvenated & a little child like. My waking pattern to the days light is very similar now too thank god.
My sleep is not always completely smooth, the reason for that explained below but at most times, I sleep soundly in my own Lou way to awake feeling ready to start the day again.
This is a new me. This habit is not new, but the consistency of waking exactly at the same time is. At this time of the year I sleep with my curtains open - (I live in the countryside - only eyes of nature sit outside 🙏😆🦋💖)….i no longer have to set an alarm but instead I wake with the sun waking. I try to go to bed if not go to sleep at the same hour. Every night I bid my farewell, my prayers & my gratitude for the day that has been to the moon & the stars above & leave the rest to fate.
I am in a moment in my life where self care must not just be included but it is a vital. Self care is not just a survival mode option but it gives me strength & clarity like no other. It’s my ‘stop go’ process that I’ve mentioned before & thank god it works 🙏✨🙏
When my dad died ten years ago, my whole life crashed in a moment yet in many ways it was the making of me. For thirty years up to that point, I had never stopped. Not properly anyways. I had never needed to stop. I had a very fortunate run of good luck so it took something very drastic to awakened me to what life was really about. From that moment on, I spent three years intensely working on me, intensely finding ways my inner self could recover from inner trauma. Inner hurt. Inner heart break. And in many ways, finding me. And preparing me.
This world is tough. People are tough. Life is tough. What I learned then is that at the end of the day, you are going to have to heal yourself not once, but a million times. You are going to have to defend yourself, you are going to have to climb into your shell when you won’t want to, you’re going to equally have to come out of that shell, you are going to have to open up hurts in ways you never expect to but if you do, you will heal. This will be your greatest find. Your greatest learning. And it will lead to the greatest part of you - your willingness to accept life is tough but you can cope. And also most importantly you can remain soft, remain kind & most importantly you do not need to become tough to fit in. Instead if anything to remain the loving soul that you are, is the key to your healing, your hope & your happiness!
And now more than ever, the world needs soft, needs thoughtfulness, needs generosity of unconditional love more than ever.
But this process of living, loving & healing is not easy & genuinely I don’t think it ever will be. It’s going to take inner strength, resilience & and inner belief system like no other to keep you & me soft. You will be hurt a million times & each time will be no easier than the last but you will notice one thing - a pattern. A pattern of how you will get better at dealing with these things & a pattern in which you will not let go the best parts of you but instead you will hold on tighter to them. You will lose people who make you feel bad, you will take more notice of those who make effort in filling up your jar & because of them you will never lose your light.
But because this life is tough & at the present moment the world is raging against itself in many ways which really will put you to the test in ways you never expected, you are going to have to dig deep & dig often.
Well I guess the physical world is just being itself but the people within it, definitely are at a new level at war with themselves & because of that, you will need to practice acceptance, bravery, courage & wisdom more than ever. You will indeed feel pain… sharp, deep intense pain but this too will pass. Never forget that.
The world has indeed always been a tough old place but what I think is different now is that the people are the toughest part. Hurt people are hurting people like never before. Too many shells are being climbed into when the answer is to climb out & sit together. Retreat use to be a wise move but now we need to be brave & hold onto each other rather than stepping away. Stepping away has never been easier while moving together has become a mentally tougher move. The greatest thing I think I’ve learned is that one indeed must allow others to be themselves, but a combination of second chances must be given along with a wiliness not to take offence. This is my big theme of 2024. Hurting & healing go hand in hand once you are willing to move them together & they do indeed both take work, a whole lot of work but once you become aware of your pattern & put in the work, that is indeed the key to your healing & your inner peace.
In this life, you won’t just heal once, you will heal a million times but that is up to you. The healing will allow you to live a good life. Everytime you heal, you will hurt less people around you. Everytime you heal, tears will fall, you will feel the dark but most importantly you will see the light. Everytime you heal, you will become stronger. Brighter. Wiser. More loving. More at peace 🙏
At this moment in time, I am carrying something very heavy for someone I love. And even though it hurts so much to carry it, I will not put it down. No instead I will carry it with them, and we will come through it stronger. The light is coming. I can see it. And I know my practices of self care, my attention to my own workings of who I am lead me back to my healing. Healing everyday over and over. Yes I hurt. Yes it hurts. Yes it’s heavy. Yes I wish I wasn’t going through it but my hurt will not stay with me forever because I will not allow it. No instead I will be healed by the fact that I have no regrets & that at the start & the end of the day I remind myself of that. I affirm that I am where I need to be & this is my fate. My calling. The reason I am me. I lean into my heart & know it has never guided me wrong & in this moment it is my strength. When someone needs my help, I do not go step away, instead I stretch out my arm, and I wrap it around the person that needs me. And this is me. I am hope. I am healing. I am what this world was always meant to be about - we are meant to be together, not apart. We are meant to help each other. We are meant to be the light that reminds all that healing people do indeed heal people 🙏
Keep rising with the sun. Keep sleeping with the moon. Keep going. Step by step. Day by day. Keep healing. Keep holding on. Keep looking up. Keep being you -we’ve never needed you as much ☀️🌙✨
Lou x
Thank you for staying with me. I see you & I thank you 💖
Please share or leave a comment if you feel drawn too ✨🦋✨
Beautiful Lou, God bless you and your loved one. 🙏🕯️📿🙏🕯️📿
Your voice is so soothing, and your message is heartfelt, and I am able to visualize the warmth of the sun and the shine of the moon, thank you