Just when I really really needed a sign 🦋🦋🦋

Three of them appeared x

I really really needed a sign today 🦋🦋🦋🙏🙏🙏

And I’m really really grateful for being aware enough in my own personal space and in my spirit and soul that even when things are really heavy that I have the ability to keep my heart open to the possibility of hope, my head tilted enough to keep looking up and my spirit awakened in a way that I am always able to see the light shining in. And even when things are leaning heavy on me, I still show up for the people I love, whether as an auntie, a daughter, a sister, a friend or even a stranger holding the door for another or just giving a random smile to a passerby on the street. I’m proud of me for that x

I’m really tired tonight, it’s been a really hard week and now I can’t sleep because of what just happened- in a good way…But I know the thing to do every time this feeling presents itself. Write Lou write! Share Lou share!

Someday I will share a lot more of the story I’m presently going through and genuinely I feel the cross I’m presently carrying ….. one day I will be able to help so many others carry theirs, but for now, it’s the little snippets of love, light and hope I’m here to offer you as I find my way through the shadows of this world and try my best to carry people I love through chapters of heaviness. In this substack letter, I want you to feel my light just in case you too might be standing near or within the dark x Don’t forget the moon shines brightest and alone when the darkest part of the dark falls. You always shine, you just need to lean in & look up xx

The Sign - All three of them appeared tonight x

I was lying in bed with my nephew & nieces telling them a bedtime story - a made up Lou one - & not one, not two but three butterflies appeared in the room at once 🦋🦋🦋 We don’t know where they came from & tonight was my fourth night lying in bed with the little ones telling them stories as they closed their eyes to sleep….Their response to the three butterflies appearing was magical, telling me the lively one was granny, the quiet one was Joe-my dad & the third one was my two uncles in one - both who recently passed on. Following this, they repeated what they saw me do when we had to bury grans cat just over 5 months ago…..If I’m just having a good influence on three of my favourite small people, then for me, my life has been a life well lived.

I didn’t initiate any of what you will hear in this 20 second clip below. Instead it was the six year old who looked over at me and said, lets do prayers dee dee. Three butterflies is a miracle. Shauna took the lead at that very moment with Lauren & Josh happily joining in. Not one Hail Mary but two. “It works” as Shauna exclaims at the end. It does Shauna. It always works. And it was just what I needed, just when I needed it and in the very special way that gave me all I needed to keep going x

Love, Lou x

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I am so grateful to all who support my writing and this community. It is a place of togetherness and I hope I help you in even a small way, to know you are never alone. Thank you for always being here x